Necrotic Obsession

I've found out my mom's real name for the first time and don't know wtf to do about it, if anything.

Why should there be anything to do about it? Does her real name change your existence?

I'm not sure. I've spent the majority of my childhood under the belief that she didn't fucking want me, and left my father and I, but with the information of her name came some other stuff that casts doubt on that.

I know it doesn't change who I am today or how the whole situation affected me as a child, but she might also have answers that my father refused to/couldn't give/lied about. Knowing her name is more than I've ever known about her.

Basically, either I open a massive can of worms potentially containing answers that may or may not be worse than the knowledge I currently have, or just let sleeping dogs lie. I'm not sure if it's worth it - I mean, I'm an adult and I've gotten this far without her, on one hand, but there's that curiosity about what I may have missed. Fuck curiosity sometimes, just fuck it.

Well, I don't really have any advice to give. I'm not really a person that searches in the past for answers... but if you think that it would help you in some way, then have at it.

well, in a non proffesional manner.. i would say...


if you can afford it.. ask a counselor/shrink ..someone who might have some insight in these things, and is a better judge of the situation then everyone here
nd on that note..