Necrotic Obsession

ok sorry but this is gonna be kinda long, but its complex.


simply stated as in the title, my ex (the mother of my daughter) is trying to tell me what i can and cant do in my free time. more specifically she doesnt want want me drinking AT ALL. she gave me this ultimatum that she didnt want me visiting our daughter until i could prove i was sober. TOTAL FUCKING BULLSHIT. i told her if she wanted to throw threats around id call CPS on her ass, cuz of the way she keeps it, and believe me its bad. nevertheless i was able to visit the next weekend (this past one), but the only reason she agreed to it was because she decided tro go behind my back and draft my mother to her side so i could supposedly see reason. at the conclusion of their conversation it was decided that i should attend AA meetings. again TOTAL FUCKING BULLSHIT. ok now that thats out of the way let me explain a few reasons behind this.


1. ex told me that im more disconnected than i usually am around my daughter and am not giving her the attention she deserves. *note* im always a disconnected person thats just my personality. so thats BS

2. she contradicted herself, when talking to my mother and said the real reason for her wanting me to stop drinking, was fear of the frequency of my drinking escalating, and me doing something stupid. *note* i did some stupid shit over the years including DUI, im not the same person i was then and she knows this.




now my mother supposedly said that child support has some sort of a zero tolerance policy for drinking )at all). i dont know if thats just me, but i get wage garnishments (deductions or whtvr) im a responsible parent when i am spending time with my daughter, i dont see how what someone does in their free time as long as it isnt illegal can be made into a law and enforced. that sounds like a violation of rights telling me that i cant work 40+ hours a week, have deductions taken out of my check, and then when not spending time with my daughter, decide to have a few brewskies in the privacy of my home.

***if anyone knows if that is true, or has any sort of experience let me know plz***




now i am a reasonable person but like everyone i have my limits. for some reason, this sounds like her trying to run my life for little if no reason. i told my mom when she brought up the AA crap and told her flat out no, that its a waste of my precious time, for something that i dont need to go to. *now not to get into and argument about alcholism/drunk and the such, i personally know my limits, i like to drink occasionally during the week, and when its late and i know i need to get to bed and im sober, even if i really really want a drink, im not going to go out and get some. same thing as when im strapped for cash, when i have nothing in my wallet and i have a jar with mixed change enough to get booze, i wont. its plain ole fucking sense. i do have control over my habits and i know when to draw a line.
when my ex brings this up im going to tell her the same thing i told my mom(right now im leaving the issue alone until she says something, she can think what she wants)


so my choices are these

1. i listen to what my ex (and/or mom) says, and either go to AA meetings 2 a week, or completely stop drinking

2. i continue visiting my daughter despite what my ex tries to do, and if she bars me from seeing my daughter i'll call the cops on grounds of being denied the right to spend time with my child. the next time she tries that i'll call cps

3. she cuts me off from seeing my daughter, and i wait it out. *f.y.i. she tried that once before when i got pissed at her about something that was her fault, about a month or so later she was letting me visit again.


the only issues with number 2 are i rent a small room, if she got taken away, shed have to live with my parents, who after a serious incident happened, agreed that in the event she was taken away, she could live with my parents. the issue with number 3 is that my daughter will be paying the consequences for our bickering (my mom and ex have both tried to pin on me that this will be my fault)

so im just curious what everyones thought is on this, its seems like a big fucking knot and i already know how i would like to solve it, i just need some fresh ideas from people who have a different viewpoint.

***not sure if this should go here or in rants, i am asking for advice but i am ranting. ima double post in rants, lemme know mods or admins if this is prob. thx.

Look Check this Out! When it come to Children there is no Fucking Around! Bitches are Bitches I know this, But even the worst Cunt would want their children to hang with there Dad if the support is all paid up ... So I say If you drinking was in control I bet there wouldn't be a issue here! It is hard to get away from your past once it is written that is why once must try to the best of his ability to keep the Mistakes to a minimum. I know a thing or 2 about Child Support since I have a few kids with a couple of different Chicks! But I raised my kids and quit drinking and drug'in to do it! I had a hard road escaping from my Demons and the skeletons of my past still surface from time to time. I'm no do gooder or holy roller but since you asked me I will tell you to quit your drinking and raise your Kids Sober. It's really a Blast to watch them grow up and turn in to Adults....Plus.. You will need your wits about you at all time anyways because kids nowadays can really play some games! Now get your ass to AA you Lush!!